Stuck in Neutral

I know it's been a long time since I've written anything on here.  Honestly I've had a hard time finding any words to write.  It's so hard to believe that my sweet angel would be 6 weeks old already.  It's so startling how fast time flies.  And while time flies, sometimes it seems that it just drags on by.  There are days when it seems like the whole world has moved on and forgotten while I feel like I'm stuck in neutral...not necessarily wanting to stay in the state I'm in, but having a hard time moving forward.  I just don't want to forget, and I don't want others to forget my beautiful baby.  What he looked like, the way his little mouth opened and twitched every few minutes like a sign saying "hey, I'm still here."  The way he curled his little legs up so that his body was just a tiny little ball, his head full of hair, the jaw like his daddy's and nose like mommy's, how he looks so much like my dad.  So many things I'm so scared of forgetting.  I am so thankful for the pictures Karen took for us.  They're so precious to me that when I started trying to pick out the "best" ones to print, I couldn't choose.  Even the ones that were so similar that you can't hardly tell them apart...I printed them all...All 325 of them!  They fill two sweet little blue and yellow baby photo albums that are two of my most prized possessions.  I wanted to share these pictures with you, so I uploaded them to a Picasa album on Google.  https://picasaweb.google.com/107480046572166897680/Kelsey31412#  Hopefully this link will work.  If not, I'll try again another day.  Most of them are in the order that she took them...start to finish.  From birth to passing.  I will forever be grateful to Karen and Cliff for the blessing they gave us through Kelsey's pictures.  While I hope you enjoy them,  I also pray that you will see the awesome blessing God gives through the life of a child and the importance of every single life...no matter how small.